chescaltc | back to the drawing board

WELL. Interesting to see my previous entry was still filled with enthusiasm about my potential job offer. To keep things short, what happened following that was in fact, NOT an offer, but another round of art assessment (i know) which I thought I did rather well on. That was 10 days ago and I have heard a stunning amount of radio silence from their end. As days pass, I got a whole 'nother round of NOTHING, and I guess I finally accepted that I wouldn't get the job. Which sucks I'm not gonna lie. Especially since I felt so good about this coming in.

Eh, c'est la vie. Now your girl is once again back to the drawing board...feeling a bit numb. This job app process has been going for MONTHS and boy I've seen my friends get offers one by one until I'm the only one left still hustling. Can't say it's been fun. Earlier in the shower I was convinced this is probably the lowest my self-esteem has ever been. Out of the shower, it still is lol.

Now I'm literally just draaaaaaggging myself to continue despite all the blows I've managed to absorb. Not motivated by hope anymore though. Just the willingness to keep moving forward. Maybe that'll be enough.