she's lookin' at you like all the cool girls do

You know l love moments like this...where everyone's asleep and I am just enjoying the magic time of a quiet night. After the major chaos of last week, I couldn't say this week is calmer...but held more of a rekindling of past loves by discovering new ones theme.

I watched Netflix's Mixtape (2021) early this week and re-watched it again today, now it's on my top list of comfort movies. Not sure if it applies to everyone, but 12-15 was such a magical period for me in hindsight, and oddly enough when I was living it I knew I enjoyed it too. Angst will always be there as part of the human tradition, but the love I cradled for all the new music and writing and movies I had when I was being introduced these things for the first time was...truly something special. This film is an incredible encapsulation of that, and honestly it felt like I had a hazy afternoon sun kept in my pocket. You just wanna bask in it and listen to soft or gutsy punk rock while letting your mind start its imaginary adventures.

Actually, in line with that, I have a newfound love for Hole's Celebrity Skin album after saying it's too California and lost the spunk and intelligent rage of Live Through This. Turns out, you need to be at the right time to appreciate things haha! It's amazing. When Courtney Love said it's an album of growth and maturity, I felt it. And you have to have been through the wrecker to truly get this, I guess. It's a real quiet, subdued growing up. Incredible. 

I don't really think I have the words tonight truly, hell I don't even know if I have the words on ANY NIGHT. But I believe when you're feeling like the weight is lifted on your shoulders and you're just listening to your favorite tunes and have the peace you've longed for in a while, you gotta document it in some way. It's content and happiness. Might not be the case tomorrow or the coming days, but right now, wouldn't trade it for a thing. 

Hope everyone's night is as peaceful as mine. God knows we all deserve them. <3